Shoo shoo I bet you are reading this.

Xoxo

Sinking in debts , I am SINKING IN DEBTS.

Where is all the money ?

Frazzled

What is it that you want ?
Seriously just tell me your problem.

PO&I
N

It's officially the half-way mark.

I am determined to finish this.

I will not let you destroy me.

Lets doooo disssssss.

(Yeah the last line killed it, I know)

Xoxo

It's scary how I can predict stuff. Alright if what I predict really is true then HARLEY LUYA for my exam tomorrow.

Though I selfishly hope that the paper would be more difficult.
Sorry.

Y.J

Alright so I am kee-ow kaa-ing in my dads office and polishing this huge bowl of USA grapes while I let my thoughts run wild.

Lalala I'm so excited for next week though. It shall be a start for something I've never gotten to try for the whole of my life. But I'm still very afraid that It might be awkward. I dare say what I was referring to is MILES apart from what YOU were thinking.

And yes , I KNOW you read my blog my two little elf-ish stalkers.

I seriously seem to have peaked too early. Now I feel like I am just a roller coaster just waiting to tumble into a valley , impending doom.

Alright it's time to go now. Please throw me some money and I'll be your friend. I'm in need for a huge sum of money. Very soon I'm going to follow ah girl JIAK grass soon. Tsk tsk ! Originality !

Yes. Yet another nonsensical post. I TOLD YOU MY THOUGHTS WERE RUNNING WILD.

That's all
Xoxo
You know you love me

I know YOU do. So long , my little elves.

Silly

I can't believe how silly I am. How could I have left my calculator outside the exam hall.

Knew it.

Habits

Hello this shall be a very short post to keep you hanging unto the habit of reading my blog.

I think I'm delusional.

Sat with Lionel after the elementary mathematics examination (I'll tell you why I have to put it in the long form in another post -____-) and we had a nice little chat. Caught up with him with his issues and we managed to avoid the attention of a rather ferocious teacher.

Yes I believe that I still am restricted to the confinements of my school system and I wouldn't relish the thought of tainting my record.

And yes. I still feel very blessed to be among my friends, especially when I can enjoy spending time with them.


That's all. You may carry on with your revision, or you can choose to give yourself ANOTHER five minutes. Trust me , I do that ALL THE TIME.

Xoxo

Appreciation

I am going to tear the olevels down. Watch me do it.
I will be able to do my best and not regret it in the future.

Spent my day doing Amath in the morning, biology in the early afternoon and I have been studying for English till now.

I must say that it is actually quite wrong for one to say that there is nothing for one to 'study' for English since it is a language paper.

In my terms, it is never the case when you have such a hardworking teacher who puts in so much effort to ensure that students like us are able to be stretched to our fullest potential.

I have learnt from her that 'English' is never a subject whereby flowery language and phrases play a paramount role in its syllabus. It is, however , the practical and appropriate usage of words and the construction of sentences that are easy to comprehend.

Therefore, I have decided to give my all for this paper and write the most splendid essay that I have ever written ,and tarnish my record of not having scored above 35 for my paper two. I can do this. Watch me.

Thank you for all your hard work.
Even though you may not know it.
I'm sure many of us are greatly appreciative for what you have done.
You haven't just taught me a subject, you moulded my path in writing essays and paved a way for my passion in this language.

Thank you.

Xoxo
N

Oath

Healing.

Hello.
Today seemed like a day to heal yesterday's wounds.
Woke up in the morning feeling very emotional.
Must've been all the emotions from last night.
Had a very nice and relaxing breakfast with alf.

It's been such a long time since I've last spent quality time with Alfreda and I really missed laughing at her actions and most importantly, talking to her.wanted to take photos of my breakfast but we totally spent the whole time talking about stuff. Yes , studying was regrettably forgotten too. Walked to school with her because we both felt that we needed to burn fats !!!!

Well yeah, and the day went on. I went into this day expecting nothing good to happen but as usual, when you aren't expecting anything , you usually gain something.

Darren called in the afternoon to talk and we talked about our problems. It's really nice that I can always find strength and support from him because he really is so supportive.

And as I lay on my bed, many thoughts made true way into my head.

What would I be like if I hadn't met my friends ?

Maybe that's what friends are for.
They mould you. And you mould them too.

Before I leave, I would love to give thanks to life that had brought these amazing set of friends in my life. And I intend to walk this path down with them.

Thank you :
Cherish 7.
The morning Four.
My boys from WoNdeR
My girls from JFARGSY
My bitxh.
Two Darrens.
Halim
Han Xin
The 19th
Horny retarded club.
NI NAI NAI PI GU
Group 2
The group under CHERRY JIE
NINJAS
THE BOYS
Nicholas wong(heh, I know you read)
my teachers.

"My best friends best friends till the world ends"

You know I love you
Xoxo
Happy and satisfied

10

I clicked the blogger app with tons of emotions to express, and yet I found my fingers frozen over the keyboard.

Goodnight.
The stakes are forever getting higher.

Xx

Brink.

And yet I wonder, how long will this facet last once more ? Or might it finally wind up in flames, never to be brought up again ?

And the stakes are getting higher and higher.

Enjoy the ride, that's what SHE said.

Xoxo
It's fits by the way,
Because that's what she said.

Carbs.

On the train so it's going to be a short one :

The line separating LOVE , and HATE is very thin. So watch your step for strong love , easily translates to strong hate.

That's the reason why many people get BURNED.

X

Trepidation.

Sometimes I believe that my mind is either stupid or it refuses to communicate with my logical thinking. So stupid.

By the way if you are reading this, I'm sorry. Real sorry

Cool

Today I met an unexpected person in macs and it shook my inner goddess out of her wits Xoxo

Again ?

Haha what a hypocrite I am. I have decided not to go to school tomorrow.

Because I can.

Silver-lining

This is the halfway point of the final week before I finally end my education in nan hua. It has been joyful four years .fulls of regrets and mistakes , but they too , were memories made. Who would have known how bittersweet it would ever taste ? Of course , I had been filled with betrayals and what not. But these incidents mould us to be the people we are. And it's it exactly these memories that make us who we are. So I suggest you to come to school , and live the nan hua experience,

ONE

LAST

TIME.

Xoxo
The one who shall not be named

Yes I know silver lining is without the hyphen , but it shall stay as that as I do not break my own trends

Morning

Life is full of ups and downs and right now, I'm experiencing one of the many downs . Soon everything will waver over And I'll be liberated . Goodbye Anastasias.

MMODB

I seem to have come to terms with the fact that happy days never actually exist. Because bad things will always happen , and people will forever be misinterpreting your deeds. And people will never forgive. Some do , but all do not forget. And I do not blame these people because that's what I do personally. I ain't no saint.

So I have learnt that I should seriously be sticking to my own shell and minding my own damn business.

I am not angry. Lest you wanna pry.

X

Charlatan.

Talked to my dad and he really got me interested in learning and being an academic. But all this is bound to have an eventual clash with my lifestyle my inner goddess is currently wringing her hands in agony and confusion.

This coming week shall have a name called : FOCUS. Yes complete focus. Next week's name will be DISCIPLINE and the the week after : STRENGTH. Goodbye baby goodbye.

Xoxo

BAR

Hi. If you are still loyally checking my blog. Wanted to post many of my thoughts here but my damn schedule forbids me. So I am now in my dads office and he is sleeping so I can type a few words here.

It is only now that I realized how much people rely and bank on words of encouragement. Because the ride a journey uphill for the exams are THAT torturous. Not to mention that it is also coupled with our regular TEENAGE ISSUES with life.

My recent experiences and conversations have made me think about my career prospects again.

I haven't had any fruitful conclusions for the past few times I've pondered about it as I just couldn't find the right job that I like. One that pays well ( yes , a good pay IS that important, please do not wag your fat fingers in my face and tell my that I do not need money to be happy, ok ill leave this for my future posts) , and also one that can tolerate my future lifestyle that I fully intend to have. Most importantly ,it simply bears down to whether I have passion for the job.

And so I was on my stalking mode on Instagram recently and found this guy who has been studying law in London.

Wow. Law , it would have been what the 10-year old version of me had wanted. But recently, this dream of mine seem to have been awoken.

I even day-dreamed a plan out

I will work under the government for
Two years

OR

I will be the secretary of a barrister for two years

Then I'll work under private practice until I am 35. Be a BAR if I can.

I'll partner with someone to co-own a private practice by 37. By this time I intend to have already adopted my kids.

40 - handle only pro-bono cases to help people who can't pay for their fees.

Done, well it does seem like an overly-ambitious plan , given that I was never a top student in anyway. I'm not even the top 50 percentile of my school but A friend recently encouraged me so much that I feel like I have an opportunity.

That's all , thank you for sharing my dreams.

Xoxo
N