Breathe

No. I'm not blogging about how olevels are over.

Went to Lionel's house again today to continue doing the grad day presents and it was quite a happy day I guess.

Came home to lion king. It was the first time that I ever caught the show, although my mum claims that she brought me to watch it in the theaters last time. How nice it is a healthy relationship that simba and nana have built up based on friendship. I thought that it was a pretty damn good movie worth replaying !

Somewhere throughout the movie , my dad was telling me how a bird apparently flew into my house and how he "wrestled" with the bird( no , he didn't kill it) . In the end he kept in in a FISH tank , with an intention to set it free the next day , given that it cant seem to move. Oh well , my mum freaked out when she saw it right above the laundry. She jumped up and down pleading us to bring it Away.

haha,she mustve been terrified.

Lately I keep having some negative thoughts of me being the Quota but I guess it's always wrong and I should push that away. I hope I'll get over it soon !

Mid-season of the finale season of gossip girl was great as usual.

And now I'm tired and satiated.

AND ANNOYED

Xoxo
N

3.

Last three days before I say goodbye to studying for the sickening exams. Recently it's just been getting on my nerves , all this studying and nagging from everyone in your life , encouraging you to push on when I have nothing in me left to push one,

Goodbye. My mood will improve exponentially on Friday afternoon.

Maybe not. After all of you witness the greatest stunt I'm about to pull. Heheh

Xoxo

P.s recently I find Justin bieber very hot I just can't stand it ugh. My entire phone looks like a belieber phone

Studying at a table with four consecutive iPhone users ain't exactly cool. When a phone vibrates, the whole table shakes and everyone picks up their phone to check if anyone bothers to contact them. That's all. Laters

Pardon me but I would like to use this post to get some feelings off my back.

I think it is a good time that you left for Korea. I hope that you can actually CONSIDER what the consequences are and what a relationship entails. How can you even like someone so early ? I don't seem to believe it. Though I know you are sincere but I'm protecting myself. And you too. I hope your time there can let the both of us think and breathe. Sigh problems are always such an agony.

And you. It's always hard to resist. Sometimes I'm just plain irritated by myself for my low self-discipline and how I keep letting my guard down for you. You cannot be so selfish. Let it go
Man.

Goodbye. This is such a pain in the ass

I just had a mind blowing 10 minutes because my electronic dictionary died on me. Thank heavens for the clever mummy ^______^

Good night everyone. New posts below if you've been lazy

Xoxo
N

Happiness

Happiness is when you find you Friends wing happy together. Once again , a photo seals it all. I'm in love with y'all babies.

Sorry for the rip-off mummy lau

Crime

Crime scene : #313

Details: On a wet Saturday night of 3 November 2012 , an Indian security guard alerted the police after the disappearance of three teenagers.the location was a remote spot behind the water where caves shrouded all the light. In this dark and gloomy night , how could three youthful teenagers be found missing ? They were last found hidden in the caves with flashy lights ,figuring and racking their brains for the ancestors of the mysterious J

When asked , She described them as below :

1) The bleeding girl
Something happened to her legs before the disappearing act , her shoes seemed to have been bitten by dogs. Her hair....... Was a mess.

2) The boy
Typical nerd you could ever find. Hated by all and has to endure pains of judgement and ostracizing by friends. Don't ask me how I know , I saw it from his eyes.

3) The Lost one
This one is the craziest of the lot, cracking up out of a sudden and encourages her friends to do full their noses will 100 plus. She has a weird habit of liking ALL of her friend's instagram photos. She seemed , lost in her own world.

And..... How did THEY ever go missing ? Whatever swept them away from the batu caves? It certainly smells like strawberry. And what happened to the last piece of evidence left behind ? Who left it there ? Where are they now ?

THAT'S THE SECRET ILL NEVER TELL

you know you love me

Xoxo
N

Spent an enjoyable evening with my girls.

Was tempted to blog but as usual , beauty sleep seems to always wine over.

Ciao
Xo
N

Humans suck.
They really do.

greetings everyone. as you may already have known , the 'hell week' is over for most of us and most of us are probably lounging on our couches. with the typical fingers behind the mobile cell and scrolling for some juicy information from new blog posts. yes , i do wonder if i was the top one of your list. maybe not.

it hasnt been an easy week, and thus far , it has gotten far worse than what i had envisioned 'hell week' as.

well i havent enough time to exhaust energy and time harping on incessant , and irrelevant history, be it sad or heartwarming. therefore i have decided to blog about some of my thoughts. please note that the more you think that i might be refering to anyone, the more you should leave now. you have been warned. 

its actually nothing much. its not the usual of 'how i feel towards this issue/person' . its basically how i feel towards certain issues that have made their welcome/unwelcome appearances in my turbulent life. 

i hate being a middleman. 

*there was supposed to be loads of stuff ive typed down but i decided against it* 

gist : i promise to keep as transparent of the truth to my friends and family unless it is regarding THE secret.

i fully intend to fulfil this promise by not lying to anyone. you can count on it. believe it or not . i will 

Trying with every last ounce of my self-discipline to press on for the final paper. It's funny how just one week of examinations can destroy your emotions.


Contrary to popular belief , the time in the day when you are most vulnerable , is never in the night. It is , however , known to Be in the morning.

I hate these emotions of mine.
I wish I could find a way to feel like a steel.
No I didn't meant for it to rhyme,bitch

X

Shoo shoo I bet you are reading this.

Xoxo

Sinking in debts , I am SINKING IN DEBTS.

Where is all the money ?

Frazzled

What is it that you want ?
Seriously just tell me your problem.

PO&I
N

It's officially the half-way mark.

I am determined to finish this.

I will not let you destroy me.

Lets doooo disssssss.

(Yeah the last line killed it, I know)

Xoxo

It's scary how I can predict stuff. Alright if what I predict really is true then HARLEY LUYA for my exam tomorrow.

Though I selfishly hope that the paper would be more difficult.
Sorry.

Y.J

Alright so I am kee-ow kaa-ing in my dads office and polishing this huge bowl of USA grapes while I let my thoughts run wild.

Lalala I'm so excited for next week though. It shall be a start for something I've never gotten to try for the whole of my life. But I'm still very afraid that It might be awkward. I dare say what I was referring to is MILES apart from what YOU were thinking.

And yes , I KNOW you read my blog my two little elf-ish stalkers.

I seriously seem to have peaked too early. Now I feel like I am just a roller coaster just waiting to tumble into a valley , impending doom.

Alright it's time to go now. Please throw me some money and I'll be your friend. I'm in need for a huge sum of money. Very soon I'm going to follow ah girl JIAK grass soon. Tsk tsk ! Originality !

Yes. Yet another nonsensical post. I TOLD YOU MY THOUGHTS WERE RUNNING WILD.

That's all
Xoxo
You know you love me

I know YOU do. So long , my little elves.

Silly

I can't believe how silly I am. How could I have left my calculator outside the exam hall.

Knew it.

Habits

Hello this shall be a very short post to keep you hanging unto the habit of reading my blog.

I think I'm delusional.

Sat with Lionel after the elementary mathematics examination (I'll tell you why I have to put it in the long form in another post -____-) and we had a nice little chat. Caught up with him with his issues and we managed to avoid the attention of a rather ferocious teacher.

Yes I believe that I still am restricted to the confinements of my school system and I wouldn't relish the thought of tainting my record.

And yes. I still feel very blessed to be among my friends, especially when I can enjoy spending time with them.


That's all. You may carry on with your revision, or you can choose to give yourself ANOTHER five minutes. Trust me , I do that ALL THE TIME.

Xoxo

Appreciation

I am going to tear the olevels down. Watch me do it.
I will be able to do my best and not regret it in the future.

Spent my day doing Amath in the morning, biology in the early afternoon and I have been studying for English till now.

I must say that it is actually quite wrong for one to say that there is nothing for one to 'study' for English since it is a language paper.

In my terms, it is never the case when you have such a hardworking teacher who puts in so much effort to ensure that students like us are able to be stretched to our fullest potential.

I have learnt from her that 'English' is never a subject whereby flowery language and phrases play a paramount role in its syllabus. It is, however , the practical and appropriate usage of words and the construction of sentences that are easy to comprehend.

Therefore, I have decided to give my all for this paper and write the most splendid essay that I have ever written ,and tarnish my record of not having scored above 35 for my paper two. I can do this. Watch me.

Thank you for all your hard work.
Even though you may not know it.
I'm sure many of us are greatly appreciative for what you have done.
You haven't just taught me a subject, you moulded my path in writing essays and paved a way for my passion in this language.

Thank you.

Xoxo
N

Oath

Healing.

Hello.
Today seemed like a day to heal yesterday's wounds.
Woke up in the morning feeling very emotional.
Must've been all the emotions from last night.
Had a very nice and relaxing breakfast with alf.

It's been such a long time since I've last spent quality time with Alfreda and I really missed laughing at her actions and most importantly, talking to her.wanted to take photos of my breakfast but we totally spent the whole time talking about stuff. Yes , studying was regrettably forgotten too. Walked to school with her because we both felt that we needed to burn fats !!!!

Well yeah, and the day went on. I went into this day expecting nothing good to happen but as usual, when you aren't expecting anything , you usually gain something.

Darren called in the afternoon to talk and we talked about our problems. It's really nice that I can always find strength and support from him because he really is so supportive.

And as I lay on my bed, many thoughts made true way into my head.

What would I be like if I hadn't met my friends ?

Maybe that's what friends are for.
They mould you. And you mould them too.

Before I leave, I would love to give thanks to life that had brought these amazing set of friends in my life. And I intend to walk this path down with them.

Thank you :
Cherish 7.
The morning Four.
My boys from WoNdeR
My girls from JFARGSY
My bitxh.
Two Darrens.
Halim
Han Xin
The 19th
Horny retarded club.
NI NAI NAI PI GU
Group 2
The group under CHERRY JIE
NINJAS
THE BOYS
Nicholas wong(heh, I know you read)
my teachers.

"My best friends best friends till the world ends"

You know I love you
Xoxo
Happy and satisfied

10

I clicked the blogger app with tons of emotions to express, and yet I found my fingers frozen over the keyboard.

Goodnight.
The stakes are forever getting higher.

Xx

Brink.

And yet I wonder, how long will this facet last once more ? Or might it finally wind up in flames, never to be brought up again ?

And the stakes are getting higher and higher.

Enjoy the ride, that's what SHE said.

Xoxo
It's fits by the way,
Because that's what she said.

Carbs.

On the train so it's going to be a short one :

The line separating LOVE , and HATE is very thin. So watch your step for strong love , easily translates to strong hate.

That's the reason why many people get BURNED.

X

Trepidation.

Sometimes I believe that my mind is either stupid or it refuses to communicate with my logical thinking. So stupid.

By the way if you are reading this, I'm sorry. Real sorry

Cool

Today I met an unexpected person in macs and it shook my inner goddess out of her wits Xoxo

Again ?

Haha what a hypocrite I am. I have decided not to go to school tomorrow.

Because I can.

Silver-lining

This is the halfway point of the final week before I finally end my education in nan hua. It has been joyful four years .fulls of regrets and mistakes , but they too , were memories made. Who would have known how bittersweet it would ever taste ? Of course , I had been filled with betrayals and what not. But these incidents mould us to be the people we are. And it's it exactly these memories that make us who we are. So I suggest you to come to school , and live the nan hua experience,

ONE

LAST

TIME.

Xoxo
The one who shall not be named

Yes I know silver lining is without the hyphen , but it shall stay as that as I do not break my own trends

Morning

Life is full of ups and downs and right now, I'm experiencing one of the many downs . Soon everything will waver over And I'll be liberated . Goodbye Anastasias.

MMODB

I seem to have come to terms with the fact that happy days never actually exist. Because bad things will always happen , and people will forever be misinterpreting your deeds. And people will never forgive. Some do , but all do not forget. And I do not blame these people because that's what I do personally. I ain't no saint.

So I have learnt that I should seriously be sticking to my own shell and minding my own damn business.

I am not angry. Lest you wanna pry.

X

Charlatan.

Talked to my dad and he really got me interested in learning and being an academic. But all this is bound to have an eventual clash with my lifestyle my inner goddess is currently wringing her hands in agony and confusion.

This coming week shall have a name called : FOCUS. Yes complete focus. Next week's name will be DISCIPLINE and the the week after : STRENGTH. Goodbye baby goodbye.

Xoxo

BAR

Hi. If you are still loyally checking my blog. Wanted to post many of my thoughts here but my damn schedule forbids me. So I am now in my dads office and he is sleeping so I can type a few words here.

It is only now that I realized how much people rely and bank on words of encouragement. Because the ride a journey uphill for the exams are THAT torturous. Not to mention that it is also coupled with our regular TEENAGE ISSUES with life.

My recent experiences and conversations have made me think about my career prospects again.

I haven't had any fruitful conclusions for the past few times I've pondered about it as I just couldn't find the right job that I like. One that pays well ( yes , a good pay IS that important, please do not wag your fat fingers in my face and tell my that I do not need money to be happy, ok ill leave this for my future posts) , and also one that can tolerate my future lifestyle that I fully intend to have. Most importantly ,it simply bears down to whether I have passion for the job.

And so I was on my stalking mode on Instagram recently and found this guy who has been studying law in London.

Wow. Law , it would have been what the 10-year old version of me had wanted. But recently, this dream of mine seem to have been awoken.

I even day-dreamed a plan out

I will work under the government for
Two years

OR

I will be the secretary of a barrister for two years

Then I'll work under private practice until I am 35. Be a BAR if I can.

I'll partner with someone to co-own a private practice by 37. By this time I intend to have already adopted my kids.

40 - handle only pro-bono cases to help people who can't pay for their fees.

Done, well it does seem like an overly-ambitious plan , given that I was never a top student in anyway. I'm not even the top 50 percentile of my school but A friend recently encouraged me so much that I feel like I have an opportunity.

That's all , thank you for sharing my dreams.

Xoxo
N

Humans.

Humans can be so complicated at times.

And who would've known that your greatest fears might turn out ok after all ?

And yes , sorry for yet another nonsensical post.

You love me
Xo

Ps, gossip girl is back in town bitches

Dream.

Hi I just woke up from this very eerie and surprising dream.

Not the kind that is filled with ghosts but a dream that sparks mortifying revelations in my mind.

Just like a forbidden fruit.

It's just like something that you must not do and can never have, not to mention imagine. But it is also that something that pulls hard at you from deep within your subconscious.

How can dreams feel so real ? I could literally feel it physically , but more importantly, emotionally. It fired me up so much and sent all my emotions and feelings flying all around and it left me so drained out in the morning.

Can dreams turn true ? I would kill for it to be so.


And what might it be ?
That's THE secret I'll never tell
You know you love me
Xoxo

Temptation.

My motivator

Heart-attack

Hey, I had this really super mood to actually do math today so I spent my entire day doing a math and

It felt good.

Apologies for the wordy posts, I haven't seem to master the skill of adding photos.


Well as the title suggests, heart-attack oh not me of course no no. It's my fish. So while I was sprawling on my bed in my room , sneaking an instagram read , my dad popped his his head into the room and excitedly invited me out.

It turned out that one of my pregnant fish , yeah , PREGNANT. Was supposedly having a heart attack.

I don't know if I should be saying this but those who might judge, please stay away now.

Yeah, the fish had a heart attack and was zipping out of the water surface from time to time. Then.......

IT DIED.


DUH. But what my father did was gross and brave. Because the mum was just dead , the little premature embryos were still living , thus, my dad used two satay sticks to POKE. (yes poke) the belly of the fish , and just like a C-section , excavated the premature fry out. (fry = small fish)

Some moved some didn't. Others moved and didn't after awhile. It was saddening.

Heh. I must have bored you with this little even that happened.


Xoxo
N

Below is a photo of a lil cute boy I intend on kidnapping. Good bye ;)

Listen

Bloody hell I will not allow you to do this to me. I will NOT have HFMD please please I must not have it

husbands

My love

PooT

Well today was an utter disaster. Well at least math was a lil better though , at least I felt comfortable answering the questions. MUCH more comfortable

Basically today was quite a disaster, well I repeated that eh ? If I'm not wrong it's something called alliteration ? HAHAHAH guess not ?

Also , if you would like some tips on being the perfect bitchy queen , please feel free to look up bitchy guide 101 at my pal's blog :
Theprettyan.bs.com
Well, she does act like it but she is a pretty one at that , so , yeah , judge away.

Well that was quite random wasn't it ?

Yeah ,I get that a lot.

P.s my dad sounds creepy when he vomits. Yes he has it too . Poor him

P.s.s christian grey is the hottest fictional guy ever. EAT THAT UP.
And , yes , JUDGE away.

Oh yeah, you know you love me,
Xoxo
N

Wither

So I guess being sick really sucks after all.

Managed to pull through the geography paper in the hall but I was utterly disappointed with my seconds Lorms. I knew I could have done it but I just couldn't. Sigh.

Went to see the doctor while skipping the biology paper today , I honestly hope the class did well:) talked to lips and she said I could get the paper afterwards so yeah .... Sigh , I worked hard for biology and yet I couldn't take the paper just because my body couldn't take it. Seriously pissed off with the fact that I am such a weakling.

Anyway , the doctor gave me a jab after I told him I needed a fast cure. Well, my dad suggested the jab anyway. But after the jab it was when things started to turn real crazy.

Firstly , a few minutes after the jab , I felt as if I was going to collapse. I felt really breathless and I had to lie down very awkwardly. Even then my dad took no notice of me. I struggled to breathe and my vision turned black , with only remnants of my actually visit being seen , the woman at the counter spoke to me about the medicine but I couldnt hear anything. My head was to clouded. Then my dad led me out of the clinic and I collapsed. He brought me back and I was told to lie down on a bed. My head was spinning so violently I felt like puking out everything , yet again.

Turns out that my blood sugar level went way below the normal levels and it was dangerous for me to walk , especially after the jab. Thanks to my no-breakfast routine.

Feeling better now I guess , even though I still feel so miserable. Don't worry about me, I'll be fine. Hate it when I worry people . That's the last thing I want to do.
X,
N

Near

The burnout is near. I can just feel it.

Did you know I am now planning to give up my study session for one chapter of history just because my body said it was too lazy !

Sigh I HATE this.

Why am I so bloody lazy ?
This is not good.

Anyway, I guess I can't call Leila at 12 then but anyways , if you do see this post , please wish Leila a happy sweet sixteen.

X

Scar-gone.

It's amazing how three people can have such a bond so close. The feeling is really heart-warming

Mood : 75

Xoxo
N

P.s : I DONT do It , just screw off

Sheesh

People have GOT to understand the importance of cooling their tits even when they are pissed.

Girls and Guys and FB these days TSK

Lesigh. I'm beginning to sound like a spinster.

Toodles,
Your brown next door.

Fish

My fish laid eggs. I am now a father.

My inner goddess sits on a lotus pad.

Oblongata

Day two . Let's go !

By the way , I imagined

anastasia as Blair waldorf

Kate as Diana from TSC

Jose as navid

And finally who is Christian grey ?

That's a secret I'll never tell

XOXO

Fired

All fired up for my papers tomorrow !

Shall take a long nap for more energy to face tomorrow.

XOXO
N

Ps I never knew Raphael was the same age as me °0°

Thinking

Today, I have gone into many deep thoughts of my own.

Never mind I'm too lazy. Those thoughts are rather negative anyway to don't bother

X

Vortex

What I feel now, is that my life is spinning out of control.

Sure I have my friends to back me up.
They always do.

But essentially, I just feel constantly distracted by my thoughts about impossible scenarios and ponder over it. This cannot go on.

"My ice cold heart shall not feel.
No matter how many times fates tries to drill"

Well recently I realized that my blog is all about emotional exploration of myself and not exactly about my life so , yeah , read on if you wanna know more about me, of which , i guess Is a big messed up picture.

People care about people, who care about themselves

XOXO

Oh by the way , YOU'RE the bitch

Boogling

Days like this, they take you on an emotional roller coaster.

Why does it always seem that when you are genuinely happy at times, life never lets you have the luxury of
Savouring the moment by throwing something negative at such timings?

People are multi-faceted. You can throw stones and rocks in every direction and Find no one with the same reaction to a particular situation

Mind-boggled ?

In essence, us people treat our circumstances differently. Some may react with anger, others, grief.

And it is this particular trait of ours that gives rise to conflicts.

What I may love may be what you abhore.

What I define as a jerk may be considered by you as an angel.

And since we CANNOT , and should not try to make everyone happy by creating a situation whereby everyone is happy, we should come to terms with the fact that , not everything we do strikes people the right way.

And NO. I am not trying to encourage feather ruffling 24/7. But to put one point across. We should understand why people react in their way to their situation at hand, not just putting your foot down adamantly and insist that what you say is right.

Since we cannot change the world, why not we change for the world ?


By the way , I know better to add that whatever I've said above is from what I feel these days and they never are meant to flame anyone so to speak .


Anyway, I never knew waffle cakes could be so delicious , and heart-warming .

XO,
N


Just like broken glass, it leaves a scar ,
You say


It will remain broken unless we salvage it
I say.


Just like broken glass.

Frazzled

Life has its up and downs, Keep calm and do handstands.

XOXO
N

Swing

Ugh why can't I control my emotions. I'm getting angry and irritated by the wrong people for the wrong reasons

Food

Today has been a relatively happy day given that I've had an enjoyable experience in the oral examination. My only hope is that I'll be able to get the results it had expected.

Badminton today was quite enjoyable for me :) tagged up with halim and we really enjoyed ourselves laughing at how we miss our shots HAHAHAH halim.

Well so I'm here now , deciding to not do my Chinese essay , well theoretically after I've done about 90% of it already. Aish what a loser I am , not persisting .

Oh I'm supposed promote positive thinking ! Sorry ok moving on

Oh but what is there to move on ?

Oh yeah


I had a very nice little chat on whatsapp with this special friend of mine and that made me really happy ! It's so wonderful that friends are able to make you smile in every situation.

Oh ANDDDDD I mastered an handstand today !!!!!!

Mood meter : 80%

Why do I always think that people are referring to myself when they are complaining about a particular person

Inferior

What did I do ?

That's a secret I'll never know

You know you hate me

XOXO
N

Lcy

Turns out I couldn't sleep because I was stalking some people on instagram , a guilty pleasure in a while. And .... I have found very interesting stuff. Hehehe

Shoutouts to the two important angels of my life who have been following my posts daily. Cheer up gals , both of you are good enough , if no one wants you , marry wai kin and you'll be happy forever.

Mistakes in a proper subset of love.
Hurt comes as a package with choices
But what do people do ?

STFU AND MOVE ON
draw references to this please

As usual , what I blog is purely to explore into my emotional world and shouldnt be taken too seriously. Hah joke , since when has anyone takene seriously except for the time when I said I farted

XO
LCY

FATS

well that was my attempt at writing a mysterious piece of writing. Trying real hard not to sound like an idiot when I type.

Well, what happened today has made me realize that, even the toughest people have their weak spots , buried within the depths of their heart.

No Tata, please do not draw reference to any of yourselves because it ISN'T

Hence , from today onwards I have made a resolution to keep everyone around me happy to the best of my ability. And I will ensure that anyone who approaches me will feel happier after they have talked to me .

Wish me luck format oral examination !

Mood meter : 70%

XOXO
N

Numb

Our stories and past teach us to be braver, smarter, Stronger and to be numb about particular events.

Personal experiences of friends teach us to Be more intelligent and be more nonchalant to particular events


But why is it that such particular events can pose so much pain ?
Closure. That's what you need.

That's what I keep telling my self.

But then again, who needs closure when the memory that hurts you is the memory that you want to keep ?

Cheer up sweetie.

XOXO
N

Impossible

I feel easily irritated these days. So I apologize to anyone whom I've pissed off.

Too tired to even type but never too exhausted to do work. That's what she said.

XOXO
N

Someday, it's gonna snap.

Lesson

Today , before I sleep , i will reflect on what I have learnt, apart from schoolwork.


This Is a development from one of my previous blogpost. Being an outsider isn't that bad of a thing at all. Given the circumstances , I would say that it is better to stay at the periphery and look at developments. Because the less you know , the less you need to care. The more oblivious you are the less you need to worry. Then again , it only applies to certain special situations. Special parents that is.

;)


XOXO
N

Twilight.

My reaction to anger has always been different from many other people. But basically people have different forms of angry reaction and management do who am I to say that mine is the most unique ?

Well , for starters, I would have to say that my reaction to anger varies. As I can tell, I am quite an annoying person to my friends hahaha but I just keep annoying them oops. And since I am always the one instigating the angst I always tell myself that I haven't one else to blame but myself.

Ok I'm lazy to type bye

XOXO
N

Rush

Why can't I feel the urgency to study ? This is going nowhere. I really need to buck up and work hard and mug my ass off to be able to make my promise with you.

Outsider

Things always end this way.
No matter how many times
You try to forget about it
Things always end this way

Stares

An unedited photo of me with richie while we were studying

挽回

Hello my loyal readers , basically the reason for my constant Mia is either because I am too lazy or that I am trying to fight for time in my insane schedule. So I guess I'll just be posting during the weekends then .

As you can infer from my previous post , yes , I was at the national day parade preview. Had my Amath tuition in the morning but I couldn't quite keep up but in the end I managed to catch on what my teacher had told me . Shall do some questions on it to prepare for the mock exam tomorrow. Then I watched abit of the Olympics on the tv . The weather was so cold and the air con was turned on so I was literally a human popsicle !

Then richie came and we did some studying together (not productive). And then I bathed and we left for The Float ! It's funny how I manage to know my way to that place without looking at any map hehehe HAO LIAN abit .

Changed three trains and wound up at dhoby ghaut. Went out to pee ooops . And then we bought drinks for some nan hua performers and spazzed over girls generation(well, only me I guess )


After getting off at promenade we didn't head for the seats though the gates were open . We found our way to the F1 put to find the nan hua performers ! We were so scared that we were gonna be chased out but I told richie to walk as if you know the place , and true enough , we made it ! Hehehe 😏😏😏😏😏

Hung outside the waiting room cause we were so scared to go in. It's the same room as the YOG performers last time. But fortunately I saw my primary school friends and they told us we could go in so , WE DID.

And yeah , the NDP began.it was quite a good show , not exceptionally special but good enough in my word . Anyway I would like to say that I am so very proud to be Singaporean because we are the coolest 5million people on earth!

So yeah. Went home with richie and had a lil heart to heart with him. I feel quite guilty that I haven't been there for him all this while when I could've. Sigh I must be a terrible friend.

Anyway I stayed up till 4 in the morning to watch the singapore team ace again north Korea and they played quite well !

That's all

xoxo
N

Best-Friend

Disaster

Exhausting

Just trying to squeeze a post out wit the limited free time I have (and yes , I am again typing on the toilet seat , just , not pooping.)

Well as my title goes, this routine of mine, together with my close friends , has certainly proved to be both mentally and physically exhausting to developing teenagers like us. I may not show it, I certainly felt very drained out when it came down to actually DOING work during night study.

discovery: I focus very well when I am studying with Huey yan , I hope she feels the same way too. Accomplished a chemistry paper two during the last hour of night study. We were just really focused and I look forward to similar study sessions! (well , except for a little spat because of seating preference.seriously irritating, make up your mind bro)

Anyway, I came back and did my thang, and settled down to complete the Chinese homework and the math paper. Did a little bit of math. Yeah I should have known not to put math at the final leg of my study session( stupid , you should have know)
Yep that pretty much concludes my tiring day , not to mention the silly competition thingy Renee kept trying to upkeep HAHAHAH .

XOXO
N
ps. I am not sure if I am a little irritable or just plain annoying. Why do I keep having the feeling like whatever I do is wrong? Anyway to all the people I've pissed off today , well yesterday , I am sorry and I shall reward you with ummy muffins" as an apology and I will change to make y'all happy again ;)

P/s/s did you know how pretty hyuna is ? PEE KA CHEW

Look down and be amazed

99

Before I begin with anything , here is an APOLOGY to my loyal reader F, who has been complaining about my infrequent amount of posts lately. Well I must say that I've been really busy , either I was studying or sleeping (yes,sleeping is a BASIC human RIGHT). Other than that , I was just plain lazy to post anything! For that I apologize to the sweetest girl who has problems herself too . Cheer up F! Present this blog post to me to claim a free hug from me ! No strings attached !
Anyway , I have decided too cancel out all of my social networking accounts with an exception of blogger and WHATSAPP , my only two sources of information. This decision was largely prompted by my dad (yet again) for having a perfect timing in his urinary bladder and to walk past my room while I was in the midsts of scrolling down tweets in the middle of my precious five minute break.

Basically it wasn't only that, there this other issue that bothered me SO much but I shall not mention it here lest my father decides to stalk me (yes , YET AGAIN)

So after all the disappointments and "I am such a letdown" episodes that have been running on a repetition in my mind for these few days, I have decided yesterday that I will not let my life swing out of control. I have worked , so VERY hard since the start of this year and I am determined to make my effort worth it. EVERY single piece of worksheet.


So here's the plan. Seven weeks to the next preliminary exams, in this seven weeks , (well, six actually) I will do another round of notes for ALL my humanities subjects , ALL for science , and I will finished my EMATH TYS and also bio and chemistry TYS . Please note that this is purely an expectation that I give myself and I do not mean to throw anyone off edge or anything. This is because I want to actually work hard and try for one more time to see if hard work and practice really matters in my results.

Well, FYI this post is being solely typed out when I was In the toilet (I still am) , sitting on the toilet bowl , so yeah , no judging .

In a few moment I'm going to let it rain over me and mix fragrant esters onto my skin and fit in plastics benathe my thick eyelids. This is in preparation to visit gardens by the bay for the STAR concert. I'm mainly going there for my 4MINUTE ladies and maybe a lil of boys like girls. Not much of a fan but I certainly am excited to hear from a world class band/group(?)

So goodbye everyone. I'll be updating about the concert soon ! Goodbye !

XOXO
N

Diminished

  Hello my dears. It certainly has been awhile since I have last blogged. So much for wanting to keep this blog alive by constantly updating. Anyway, as you might already have known, the preliminary exams have officially came to an end. Not gonna say that it was a complete relief for me, thinking back at all the horrible work I have down in on my scripts. Don’t even get me started on my amath paper.

  Well so, after the sorta horrendous biology paper today (to me it was frightful, not sure about you kiddos out there), we travelled to clement mall by bus, whereby my embarrassing tale was being made known. *digs a hole and hide*. It was a total embarrassing situation then.

  Fortunately, we were able to get by that miserable phase and we went to the mart to accompany the others to buy stuff for their supposed red velvets. We saw how expensive macaroons where and I was like : SIAN.

  I seriously don’t get why macaroons are so expensive. Its like denying the underprivileged(financially), like YOURS SINCERELY a CHANCE to actually TASTE such heavenly delicacies. Unless you go to those pasar malam whereby I suppose they sell 翻版 macaroons made from red bean and stuff. Only these people below can gorge on the delicious macaroons below everyday like they are rice.

Moving on, Leila and I met up with my lower sec clique-mates (always a mystery how Leila manages to mingle around with anyone she finds) and realised that we were a shade too early for our lunch at seoul garden. An hour and a half to be exact. The wait was so depressing that we waited outside this kate love shop observing these people setting up thir stalls to sell fake renoma underwear at $10 for five pieces. Was quite tempted to buy oooops. Im sorry.

  Well yeah, so that was how my afternoon went. Actually went to IMM to shop with Leila and we walked around a whole hospital and realised later that we were foolish enough to take the epicly long route. Fortunately for us, we got each other’s company and we kept laughing on the way in spite of the blazing sun

  Anyway I got a cotton on shoe for a price that is unbelievably cheap but I shall not say lest people call me cheapo. I also went to daiso to get some stuffs with Leila. An embarrassing incident happened to Leila there that had thrown me into paroxysms of laughter.

Yeah so here I am now, with my swollen eyes barely withstanding the weight of my fat eyelids. Cried quite abit just now but I guess I am fine now ok I shall just end here

XO,

N

Me

Cute

Shatoosh

Me and my friends

Pleasant

Shall rush a quick blogpost before I sleep !

Firstly, I would like to wish Ryan, a friend of mine, a member of JFARGSYWONDER, a joyous and happy birthday ! I certainly hope that he has had a fantastic one so far amid all the studying that he has to do for his literature exam. Nonetheless, I do wish him well in all his future endeavors! I would also like to thank him for adding so much color to my upper secondary life, without him , I would certainly have missed out on many interesting stuff! Even though we make fun of him at times , I do hope that he knows that we actually do love him . THAT MUCH .

Aww wasn't that sappy ? Well I've decided to just read through my Amath textbook , given that my fate has been sealed ever since my horrible andouille flop at trying to attempt for a pass in the paper two component . Oh well..... I'll try harder (confessions of a loser)

I hope that I can make it pass tomorrow because that would actually mark the beginning of the end of the preliminary examinations ! Nonetheless , I wish everyone of my friends luck in the upcoming papers. THE END is near guys.

XOXO,
N

P/s : if you've noticed , I've actually used long forms for many words that I could've save time by using short forms , I did it with an intention to increase the length of my post . For that , I apologize .

P/s/s : it was magical to be actually talking to you after what happened . I hope that I can get over what happened and things will be better
*blushestothemax*

Morning

Tracks

anyway, before i go , i just wanna say that this song has been running tracks round my head today

Paranoia

I believe that we were all meant to be together

  Meet the nine people above. Can you see them? Yeah, these are the people whom I have since, from mere acquaintances, grown up with to become a loving group of nine. We go by the name of JFARGSYWONDER. Starting from the name JFARGS, coined in by the six little girls in my life and later it evolved into JFARGSY, with an addition of another member. Someone who has made an equally huge impact on my life. And then, moving on, the guys names were made into the term. They have given me strength, support and comfort during tough times and provided me with fun, joy, and laughter during happy moments. Therefore, I am dedicating this portion of my post to these people. Thank you for moulding me into a better person and I really hope that we can spend quality time together, even after we have our kids. Maybe we just might spend our twilight years playing mah-jong with each other and hao-lianing how far our children have reached in their life.

  Well, I was searching through my laptop, looking for stuff that might just be a wee bit more interesting than more pure history revision, I uncovered hundreds of photographic memories, each with a story behind them and i look forward to post It up. Well, other than those 7 princesses and 2 princes(?),there are tons of photos of others who have also played an important role in my life story, so also look forward to sharing them with you.

 Its now 1.41a.m and I am now sitting in front of my laptop, trying to make my blog post as interesting as possible while I fight a battle with this man called 周公. Basically what I have done today may be summarised into one word.SLACK.

  Today (yesterday) hasn’t been a good day given that I had to miss two interesting events just to stay at home to “study”. First up, I missed going to what would have been my virgin experience at the Pink Dot event 2012, hosted by the Queen Kumar, Sharon Au and this guy that I just can’t seem to remember his name, something beh ? oops. Anyway , the Pink Dot event is basically an event to call for ‘Freedom to love’.

SO , what is the freedom to love ?

  Essentially, to me, the freedom to love is to be able to love whoever you want, without having to come under the close scrutiny of the public, and being pressurised to “un-love” someone just because the society “forbids” such behaviour. Anyway , that is what I feel. I hope that you might have the same stand.

Also, I missed out on a chance to meet some amazing singers! I think most of ya’ll might have gotten wind that jayesslee were in town and were performing live at takashimaya. I would really have loved to join my my girls yan and suan to hear those amazing singers sing live. Too bad i am practically chained to my study desk literally.

  Ok I guess that pretty much rounds up what I have to say for today, except the fact  that I am totally exasperated and frustrated at instagram for not working. I still am angry as It is still screwing me up. So I guess ill just let it be and pretend to be so delightfully surprised when It works when I wake up.

  Its going to be yet another tough week to go through but on a lighter note, Leila and I are going to have a great meal at seoul garden buffet ! I AM SO EXCITED TO EAT COCK…..CLES AND I CAN JUST LITERALLY TASTE IT.

Anyway, thanks for taking your time to read my wordy and dry blog post.

XOXO,

N 

Pretty

Palm

Pourpre

Pilot

Pilot post 

  Just as any other American series , we all start from our pilot episode , and hope for the best , and that the show can be maintained. From what I see, it ain't that different in my case. I hope that I will be faithful in updating my blog, and that through this, record my life events in a chronological order (especially after I have grown up, I would like to look through this blog and laugh at how silly I was).

  So maybe if you'd like to stick around, you might wanna just use a little force on your left mouse on the follow button ? 

  So I guess that's pretty about everything I would like to post for my pilot post. Not a very roaring start as I would've imagined,but don't all great achievements start off from humble beginnings  ? 

XOXO,

N